Since my cancer journey I have heard the word "positive" many many times.
People will often tell me to "Stay positive!" "Think positive!". As if "positivity" is the cure to cancer. Usually I brush it off, no offense to anyone that has said that to me, but some times hearing those words of encouragement is almost the same as hearing someone telling you to 'calm down' when you are fuming mad. Anyways, it's harmless and usually in good intention, I can live with that.
I most dread hearing this word from the mouths of my physicians. Just this past week I found out my pathology results, very unfortunately, I had 3 positive lymph nodes. Lymph node involvement is associated with lower survival rate, higher recurrence rate, and overall, not a good thing. If this was me a month ago, I would've had another emotional breakdown right then and there in my oncologist's office. However, after 6 months of being on this incredibly challenging journey, I am a lot tougher and stronger and...positive. I have accepted that there's nothing I can do to change the past, and very little I can do to change the future since cancer is such a mysterious creature. The only thing I can do for myself and for those that love me is to stay happy and to live life..and it's on a very happy note, that I've been sharing my hair growth with friends and family, and now you! It has been a little over two months since my last dose of chemo and I think my eyelashes are almost fully grown! AND I have eyebrows, albeit extremely bushy ones! Yep yep!
Lastly, I am working on some reviews of my new favourite purchases from J.Crew.
Purl Stitch Cashmere Snood! Pure cashmere yumminess!
Stadium Cloth Cocoon Coat. Love Love LOVE the silhouette and the simplicity of this coat.
Nolita Denim Jacket. A classic denim jacket that I know I will be wearing all the time!
So, stay tuned for these reviews! and I will continue to keep you updated with my hair growth progress.
People will often tell me to "Stay positive!" "Think positive!". As if "positivity" is the cure to cancer. Usually I brush it off, no offense to anyone that has said that to me, but some times hearing those words of encouragement is almost the same as hearing someone telling you to 'calm down' when you are fuming mad. Anyways, it's harmless and usually in good intention, I can live with that.
I most dread hearing this word from the mouths of my physicians. Just this past week I found out my pathology results, very unfortunately, I had 3 positive lymph nodes. Lymph node involvement is associated with lower survival rate, higher recurrence rate, and overall, not a good thing. If this was me a month ago, I would've had another emotional breakdown right then and there in my oncologist's office. However, after 6 months of being on this incredibly challenging journey, I am a lot tougher and stronger and...positive. I have accepted that there's nothing I can do to change the past, and very little I can do to change the future since cancer is such a mysterious creature. The only thing I can do for myself and for those that love me is to stay happy and to live life..and it's on a very happy note, that I've been sharing my hair growth with friends and family, and now you! It has been a little over two months since my last dose of chemo and I think my eyelashes are almost fully grown! AND I have eyebrows, albeit extremely bushy ones! Yep yep!
Lastly, I am working on some reviews of my new favourite purchases from J.Crew.
Purl Stitch Cashmere Snood! Pure cashmere yumminess!
Stadium Cloth Cocoon Coat. Love Love LOVE the silhouette and the simplicity of this coat.
Nolita Denim Jacket. A classic denim jacket that I know I will be wearing all the time!
So, stay tuned for these reviews! and I will continue to keep you updated with my hair growth progress.
11 comments:
So glad to hear your latest update!! When my mom was going through the worst of her treatment, she would say to herself: "In this moment, I am safe and all is well." You can't control the past or the future, but you can make the most of right now. Sounds like you are in the same mind frame! You are an inspiration to me, hang in there! Thanks again for sharing your journey (and your fab J.Crew finds!). :)
Thank you for updating us! I'm in awe of your strength. You really do sound like a changed person, and you're looking at things in a new way. You truly are an inspiration.
So happy to hear you're keeping your spirits up. You are such a fighter/survivor/inspiration. Yay for hair regrowth!!! Looking forward to your reviews and hearing more about how you're doing. :)
You are an amazing person.
so happy you posted and that reviews are coming! the pixie hair is very cute on you!
It's exciting to see the hair growth. You're so pretty!
You look beautiful.
This entry brought tears to my eyes. I'm so happy you are doing well.
"So happy to hear you're keeping your spirits up. You are such a fighter/survivor/inspiration." I agreed.
God bless you. It's been said before but you truly are an inspiration. Although I'm bad at following my blogs, when I do, I'm happy to read your posts. You are in my prayers.
Hooray for eyebrows. You go, girl!
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